Why it has taken me so long to write this...
I am finally ready to sit down and get my birth story down. It's taken me a bit of time to get it out for a number of reasons, such as life is busy with being a college student and staying at home full time to take care of 3 kids in 3 different stages. When my third child was born, I had 3 kids in the stages of preschooler, toddler, and baby. More recently, I have had a kindergartener and two toddlers. In a few months, the stages are about to change to first grader, preschooler, and toddler. Where has the time gone?
Life feels like it's going by fast these days with 3 kids 6 and under (6,3, and 1), so I better hurry and write down the memories while I can still remember them clearly. If I am being honest, I also think it took some time to also get over the disappointment of not having my coveted home birth that I've wanted and dreamed about since before the conception of my first child.
Those of you may not know, but I also waited a long time to have the opportunity of a home birth, because my spouse and I were not on the same page about our feelings on home birth. At the time he was uncomfortable with the idea of birthing outside of a hospital and doctor. He thought those two were the only safe options. I also want more children, but I am facing some challenges right now in my life that leaves me feeling that was my only chance because I may not have more children or not more for awhile.
The next reason is that I am unprepared for my third child to be my last. This would not be the way I want it to end, not knowing it is my last baby, the disappointment of losing my homebirth, unable to write my birth story and a corrupt SD card loosing mostly all of my labor and delivery photos, except a few precious ones that had been shared with others on social media.
But I will say this, even I am surprised at how long it has taken me to start putting pieces of this together. Generally, I am the kind of person who can't wait to sit down and jot down the story when life slows down a bit. After the birth of my third, for some reason, it has taken me longer to even want to sit down and write about it. Perhaps, I have a mild form of writer's block. Or it has everything to do with the challenges my family has been going through.
To help me work through all these emotions, I am setting a deadline to at the very least have a rough draft version published on my blog before school resumes and life gets even busier. My tentative goal is to write a little every night or every few nights until my deadline.
Last Edited: July 14, 2017
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